What makes us start?

There are things we want to do, things within our power that we would like to achieve. These things we call our hopes and dreams. Sometimes we start working towards them and find that it is easier to do whatever's easier.

Instead of working to be an author and online publisher,  I've worked administrative and secretarial jobs since my twenties. In fact, I didn't believe I could be a successful writer so I started secretarial training in my late teens so that I'd have a real job. Even though I eventually managed to get a job at a newspaper, it was in advertising sales when I really wanted to be a writer there instead. I wrote some articles that the newspaper published and became one of their freelance writers after my advertising sales reached a plateau and my enthusiasm declined...and the sales manager let me go.

When I began to write for the newspaper, I was still not happy. I was on the news desk but I wanted to write for the features desk instead.  Feature writers covered interesting people like musicians, visual artists, authors, successful business people...those were the stories I wanted to write. Stories about people who were living their dreams..

Then I got the opportunity to come to the U.S. and reluctantly left that newspaper job and my focus shifted back to secretarial and administrative work after my feeble attempts at getting a job, any job, at the Washington Post failed.

Now, more than 15 years later, I'm turning my eyes, again, towards publishing. My desire to make a living at writing has brought me back to writing, again.

So. What makes us start? Desire. You want something. You do it. It's taken too long for me to admit to myself that I'll never be fulfilled doing anything esle.

Go ahead and start..let your desires compel you, go for your dreams.

Hang in there

If you are homeless, hang in there. If you are struggling,  don't give up the fight. Try your best to stay healthy. Protect your health the best you can so that you can find work, income, housing,  etc.

For me, housing is an efficiency. A kitchenette and bath and a living area. It's a peaceful place, a decent roof over my head.

I want more for myself my daughter, though. A two-bedroom place, a nice spot near a good school somewhere.